these texts are an archive of my life in the San Francisco Bay Area from march 2007 - march 2015. it stands as a record of close to a decade of my life, charting the struggles i faced as an artist, daughter, and lover. messy and chaotic at times, eloquent and poetic at others, these texts are an index i am proud of. it was here in this electric box that i learned how to be honest about my experiences and the person i needed to become. it was here that i first learned the truism that words make the world and how to trust such a beautiful, rife, hard fact.

thank you for meeting me here in such tall grass.

my artist website is here.

Sep 12, 2009

and then a strange and grey afternoon...

on second thought, maybe beginning the day with "Satan Says" was a bad idea. my thinking has been, off and on, fairly morbid and sad all day. and the grey drizzle that persisted here in san francisco didn't help. i did manage to get out for awhile in spite of the weather but then proceeded to get my self lost looking for a gallery i've been hearing about but have never been to and then wasted a 1/2 hour looking for parking once i finally figured out where it was. once inside, i felt pretty happy but, i must say, all in all it's been a pretty rough day. having no plan and no one to talk to is pretty much the definition of a bad day for me. and if one has to be alone, it is much better to be alone inside your own home. i miss my sweetie like crazy. after 4 years together, sleeping in the same bed, drinking coffee in the morning and all that goodness, it has become hard to spend a night away from him. see! look what the rain and sharon olds have done to me! arg! or could it just be the wage of love? ha! i am a sappy romantic, after all, and he is my favorite person in the whole world anyway.


Heather Jerdee said...

Hope your day today was better, tomorrow I have my first full day of no one else home, even though I am excited I know I'll miss my kids being around. Although I am really excited too, for sure!
Anyways I can understand being lonely when away from your sweetheart, there is no place like home:) San Fransisco would be sweet though to visit! I've never been there's always a someday.

angela simione said...

san francisco is one of the best cities in the whole wide world! you should definitely plan a little vacation! so many wonderful galleries and museums and little oddities shops and of course china town. not to mention all the beautiful high-end fashion boutiques which i am still scared to walk inside of but more than content to window shop and day-dream. :)
enjoy your quiet home today! it'll be such fun when the kids get home from school. :)