these texts are an archive of my life in the San Francisco Bay Area from march 2007 - march 2015. it stands as a record of close to a decade of my life, charting the struggles i faced as an artist, daughter, and lover. messy and chaotic at times, eloquent and poetic at others, these texts are an index i am proud of. it was here in this electric box that i learned how to be honest about my experiences and the person i needed to become. it was here that i first learned the truism that words make the world and how to trust such a beautiful, rife, hard fact.

thank you for meeting me here in such tall grass.

my artist website is here.

Jul 31, 2014

shift and circle


i was offered a residency at the Vermont Studio Center.  i'm kinda shitting my pants about it.

funny how getting what you want can be a totally terrifying thing.  the passed few days have been one torrent of emotion and deep introspection after the next: self-questioning, self-doubt, second-guessing followed by fanatical rounds of elation and sheer joy at the mere thought of spending a month doing nothing but making art and hanging out with other artists. i haven't had that type of engaging, daily discourse since i was in art school.  it's been 6 years since i graduated and i miss it.  i miss it so much!  i miss being around others who think deeply and lovingly and critically about art.  i miss being around people who have centered their lives around creativity and artistic inquiry.  i miss being a big ol' art nerd, waking to scribble and draw and read and nothing else.  though that's largely how i spend my days off, it's just not the same as having 4 weeks to do nothing but those things.  and there is simply no substitute for artistic community and comradery.  there's absolutely nothing like being around other artists.  the way we speak to each other is unlike anything else.  being understood, finally, is such a poignant thing... an aphrodisiac in the deepest sense.

and so the questions pour in...

the time has come for a re-evaluation.

what am i made of?
what do i want?
what do i need?
how brave am i?



Kelly Simione said...

You are the bravest girl I know :)

Tom Beckett said...

Take that residency and enjoy it to the last drop. A sculptor I know recently suggested that I look in that very place. She'd done a residency there and sung it praises.


angela simione said...

thanks, tom! i'm still reeling from the acceptance and what a wonderful opportunity this is. i didn't think i'd actually get in! ha! it throws me in to a very deep round of self-examination that is very timely, i think. i've been wanting to make a few big changes in my life for awhile now and this residency could in fact be the catalyst for those changes. it's scary and exhilarating.

angela simione said...

thank you, sweet sister. i'm trying to be. ;)