this afternoon, i walked back to take photos of the work. i decided to put on my travel bag, fully loaded, and see how heavy the thing really is. after about a half hour, it felt pretty heavy. Becca and i are going to get fucking buff, is what. ha! but it was such a privately romantic moment... just walking down my city's streets with my bag on my back, dreaming of new york and paris, and berlin, and photographing my work up in midst of all this oakland buzz and hustle. it was a beautiful way to spend the afternoon.
the last few days have been exceptionally beautiful, actually. i had dinner with Becca's mom the evening before and being around her is so emotionally and spiritually nourishing. i think of her as Spiritual Food. i truly do. i leave feeling replenished and excited and driven to "be MORE myself" (always hearing your voice in my head these days, suzanne, encouraging me along). we had goat cheese stuffed dates that were wrapped in bacon and they were unbelievable. i can't even describe how delicious they were. over dinner we talked and talked and talked about europe and how special it is that Becca and i are undertaking this together. "i met your daughter almost 8 years ago in a color theory class and look at all the beautiful colors we've managed to bring to each other ever since." i said. sentimental as fuck, yes! but sentimentality has its place too and i'll never feel embarrassed of appreciating and loving another person. not ever. i am honored to have the opportunity to do so and to feel this way. i'm lucky to have such amazing women in my life and i adore them something fierce.
and then last night after i got home from dropping all my bombs (6 in total last night), seth and i stayed up drinking (well, i drank anyway) and watching the final dance scene in Dirty Dancing over and over again. i tried to learn the steps in the kitchen and quickly realized i need to hunt down a tutorial. :)
watch this and try not to smile. it's a piece of my childhood and makes me laugh joyfully like a child everytime i see this!
a run of beautiful days leading up to my departure. i am so thankful for the beauty that swirls around and through my life. hard to imagine how desperate and sad i once felt. hard to believe that i was once convinced i was not capable of living this way. i am astounded and endlessly grateful for the freedom i now enjoy. endlessly endlessly endlessly.