yesterday i ended up spending about 8 hours at the hospital with my friend. an accident with our rowdy dogs led to a bad fall on to her own ankle, twisted in that unnatural, heebeegeebee direction. yuck. and the x-ray confirmed two breaks.
all day at the ER. she was eventually admitted and they performed surgery this morning. pins. i'm still waiting to hear if she'll be released today. i'm glad it's nothing serious in terms of life and death but my heart goes out to her. life is so screwy sometimes. if it's not one thing, it's another- that whole bit.
she's the type of person who is always taking care of other people. always. i was glad to have the opportunity to give a little back yesterday. all i could do was stay with her while the doctors and nurses ran around and tried to make judgements and plans. my role was to just sit there and bare the horrible torture of WAITING with her.
funny how my new perspective on my art practice spilled out in to my regular every day life yesterday. patience. stillness. no rush toward anger. learning to wait and to listen with grace.
these texts are an archive of my life in the San Francisco Bay Area from march 2007 - march 2015. it stands as a record of close to a decade of my life, charting the struggles i faced as an artist, daughter, and lover. messy and chaotic at times, eloquent and poetic at others, these texts are an index i am proud of. it was here in this electric box that i learned how to be honest about my experiences and the person i needed to become. it was here that i first learned the truism that words make the world and how to trust such a beautiful, rife, hard fact.
4 comments:
You're the kind of woman who would be so smart in an emergency. My son is like that. I adore him for it. And you. I hope your friend heals quickly. Ankles and feet and toes are so damned tender!
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totally tender! i think it'll be some months before she's able to really use that foot again. but she called a little while ago. the surgery went well. now there's just a ton of pain.
i had some serious experiences in hospitals when i was young... people who were hurt very VERY badly. a parent. i tend to get very calm and methodical as a result and have my little breakdown way down the line when i'm alone and cloistered.
i'm so glad your son has this response as well. and i'm sure you do too. you are such a strong woman and wonderful friend. :)
ouch! i broke my left foot, across the top, two years ago- during a family night walk where i was being a goofball. it's an amazing pain in the ass. i am glad you could be there with her. all that waiiiiting is so boring.
totally boring and i didn't want to live her alone to deal with it. but i was glad i brought Alice in Wonderland and some crochet work with me because once they gave her the shot of pain-killer, i was on my own for awhile... unless you count the weird and funny sleep talk that erupts from strong hospital narcotics. ha!
yikes! i'm sorry you broke your foot! PAIN!!!!!
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