in a few hours, i'll be locking the door behind me and heading down to my home-town for a few days. very spur of the moment. there's some family stuff going on. my brother burned a line up the 5 freeway yesterday to come get me. he's sleeping, finally, here in my little living room a few feet away. it's been a few days since he's gotten any real, good sleep so i am being as quiet as i can. he needs it. today, my job is to be a good friend and sister to him.
he came inside and saw the big elsie portrait and fell in love. it made me happy. i think it's important to love her... even if you don't know her story. there's just something about the look on that little girls' face. a premonition. a history. a call. a call to action. and it is worrisome. i'm going to let him have the portrait. maybe she can work some magic in his home. guard the corners and arches. sing in a whisper.
anyway... i don't have much information about what's going on but the information i do have isn't good. i hope it's all been misconstrued. i hope there's been a misunderstanding, a mistake. i'll know when i see her. but if you're reading this, would you add my mama to the list of people you pray for? please.
these texts are an archive of my life in the San Francisco Bay Area from march 2007 - march 2015. it stands as a record of close to a decade of my life, charting the struggles i faced as an artist, daughter, and lover. messy and chaotic at times, eloquent and poetic at others, these texts are an index i am proud of. it was here in this electric box that i learned how to be honest about my experiences and the person i needed to become. it was here that i first learned the truism that words make the world and how to trust such a beautiful, rife, hard fact.
Nov 10, 2009
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You, your Mamma, and your brother are in my thoughts and prayers. And I agree Elsie matters. <3
Thinking of you all the live-long day. And thank you for Elsie, that black wing-ed beauty.
xoxox
consider it done.
thank you, sweet ladies! i'm still out and about but feel so much better now that i've gotten to see and hug her. a few more days of hugs and i'll make the drive back home. your prayers are working. thank you so much. :)
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