well... life happens, right? i've been getting more and more stressed out with my day-job lately and yesterday when i got home all i could manage to force myself to do was eat a bowl of cereal and go paint in my studio. no blogging, no writing, no talking, just silence and smearing around the paint. the easy, low-commitment gig i was seeking is starting to become pretty frustrating at this point but, given the state of the economy and the fact that the art-business is a fairly risky one, i don't want to up and quit just yet. it's been really nice to have some security in terms of paychecks and not really having to follow a budget since taking on this job. i don't want to give that part of it up, especially not right now when i know so many people who are out of work or are in danger of losing their jobs. it just doesn't seem smart. i can't let my feelings of frustration get the better of me... gotta keep looking at the big picture and practice patience and poise i suppose. i don't want to be fickle. besides, having a day-job is a great way of maintaining your humility. i never want to become too comfortable with being my own boss. for however wonderful that life is, it can also serve to skew your perceptions of self-worth and the value of what you do... in an over-inflated ego kind of way. no good. i think there's a tremendous benefit from being a worker-bee. i really do and i'm glad for the opportunity to remain humble. i see too many people who seem to have bought in to their own hype and it's just so unattractive. they become unprofessional and rude. they seem ungrateful for the recognition they receive and don't know how to politely accept compliments anymore. it's more than a bit disappointing to see this happen to artists and writers whose work i really admire... honestly, that kind of attitude sorta stops me from continuing to admire their work. i won't ever let myself become one of those people. EVER. besides, i'm not in this game as a fame-seeker anyway. that's the wrong motivation for art-work.
anyway, i've gotta start getting myself together for work. i just wanted to be sure to get a blog written beforehand so i don't risk missing another one simply because i'm worn out, frustrated, and discombobulated by my work day. :) hope everyone is doing well and feeling happy. angela
3 comments:
Wow! That is quite a revealing posting.
Our minds do tend to wander with all the goings on and possibilities of life. That is why it is so good to paint - mind gets quiet for a while and we can enter that space of just being.
I totally concur about the fame thing. Fame for its own sake is counter to creative process and feeds a different place. On the other hand, fame can lead to more financial freedom through sales of the art! Hmmm... balance is a good thing! : )
Have a great day at work - maybe get new inspiration for your next pieces.
Is it time for another art trade?
Last note: I'm planning an art group that would meet regularly at my studio in Berkeley. Interested?
Be well,
Seamus
hey, art trade! yay! i'm ready if you are! :)
I'm ready.
And here's another fun idea: turns out I'll be in SF this Thursday, as in first, which usually means art openings. So, I'm planning to go around to see some including Hang and Hackett (my favorite). I'm going to invite a few friends from this side to join. And, if you come and bring some people that would be called an art - ists happening! : ) Best part is we could trade art at the same time!
Isn't life fun? Yes, especially when we bring some to the party.
Seamus
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