sigh...

AOL tells me that it's 44 degrees and raining. i've got the curtains drawn all the way back so i can confirm the weather report. it is, in fact, raining. a grey and white day but there's enough light coming down from above the clouds to wrap everything in silver. lovely. and i just finished making the prints to ship off. yesterday was a crazy fiasco of finding an emergency plumber and taking my friend to the doctor to get her cast removed. all at once, all at the same time, frenzy frenzy frenzy. everything is fine now and back to normal but i am worn out. completely. i let myself sleep in this morning even though there's stuff to do and errands to run and drawings to make and drawings to finish and paintings to finish and paintings to begin and prints to send off to new homes. i'll send them off this afternoon when the rain lets up. i don't take paper outside in bad weather. nope. it just ain't worth the risk. especially when the print is made with water-soluble ink. and so i apologize for the hold-up. the insanity of yesterday was completely unanticipated and i had to barricade the bathroom with OUR CLOTHES so that the crazy black water did not flood out in to the hall and ruin the carpet. it was a wild adventure to say the least. and then the clean-up after the plumber fixed the problem - a root had grown in to the pipes - a normal occurrence for people who live on the edge of a forest, but i had never seen water-works like that in my whole life. i didn't know a toilet and shower drain could actually mimic a volcano. no fun. and yes, it was as gross at it sounds. but this morning, i woke to a clean, bright, fresh home and the drizzle coming down and the wonderful quiet and black ink and coffee.

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i stayed up a bit too late last night and am having the hardest time getting myself rolling today as a result. i just feel worn out! and maybe i am. honest introspection is hard work and i've been doing that a lot lately. the passed few weeks have been one big ol' enterprise in discovering what it means to be a "good person", what kind of life i'm interested in leading, and the laying down of old baggage. geez. maybe i just need an easy day, free of the big questions. i need some silliness. i want some fun. some good, clean, child-like play time. that's the goal today. i'm not gonna worry about much else.