these texts are an archive of my life in the San Francisco Bay Area from march 2007 - march 2015. it stands as a record of close to a decade of my life, charting the struggles i faced as an artist, daughter, and lover. messy and chaotic at times, eloquent and poetic at others, these texts are an index i am proud of. it was here in this electric box that i learned how to be honest about my experiences and the person i needed to become. it was here that i first learned the truism that words make the world and how to trust such a beautiful, rife, hard fact.

thank you for meeting me here in such tall grass.


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Showing posts with label abortion rights. Show all posts
Showing posts with label abortion rights. Show all posts

Apr 4, 2009

while cat stevens sang from the car stereo...

on our drive home from dropping off all my unnecessary lovelies at the goodwill, we saw an abortion protest outside a clinic. i've never actually seen one before. it took me a minute to realize what was happening but, once i did, it made me want to throw up on myself. i was honestly shocked. i mean, why not just wave around a banner that says "i'm full of hate". these are the people that the bumper sticker "jesus loves you but everyone else thinks you're an asshole" was made for. they don't seem to be aware of the fact that they aren't helping their cause, they're hurting it with this massive public display of ridicule and damning judgement. i was absolutely stunned that this kind of crap is still happening. stunned. it's so mean-spirited, unhelpful, and malicious.

when we finally got in the door of our home i opened, again, my much-loved and well-used Ariel, looking for something that would comfort me or offer some small kernel of hard-won insight. nothing much to do with abortion, or any big issue in particular, but the uneven ideals held by a mother and a daughter.


The Rival


If the moon smiled, she would resemble you.
You leave the same impression
Of something beautiful, but annihilating.
Both of you are great light borrowers.
Her O-mouth grieves at the world; yours is unaffected.

And your first gift is making stone out of everything.
I wake to a mausoleum; you are here,
Ticking your fingers on the marble table, looking for cigarettes,
Spiteful as a woman, but not so nervous,
And dying to say something unanswerable.

The moon, too, abases her subjects,
But in the daytime she is ridiculous.
Your dissatisfactions, on the other hand,
Arrive in the mailslot with loving regularity,
White and blank, expansive as carbon monoxide.

No day is safe from news of you,
Walking about in Africa maybe, but thinking of me.


-Sylvia Plath


i guess sometimes we are all strangers... and don't understand how to do anything other than hurt and sabotage each other. still, i hope there is hope. hope is absolutely necessary. and there is hope, even if only a little, in this poem.

Oct 17, 2008

been on my mind...

hi everybody! sorry its been a few days since my last post but i was having too much fun hanging out with my mom, drinking coffee, and showing her around San Francisco. we had a blast! i also dropped off the work for Who's the fairest of Them All? at HANG and am so excited about my inclusion in this show. showing alongside artists Cheslyn Amato, Taraneh Hemami, Katie Lewis, KC Rosenberg, Hanna von Goeler, Adrianne Watson, Jan Wattenjan, and Kelli Yon is quite an honor. i'm anxious to see all our work in one place together.

i've been thinking a lot about politics the last few days. maybe because my mother was in town, maybe because my grandfather suffered a massive heart-attack monday, maybe because my sister is a single mother and doing an awesome job raising my nephew (while preparing to graduate from college in june)... whatever the reason, the fact remains that women's issues are very important to me and have been the heart of much of the work i've done. the timing of this show is pretty great, opening a few days before the polls do, and giving me the opportunity to voice some of my own concerns about the upcoming election.

i received the following email a few days ago, forwarded me to me by a friend and it speaks to many of the concerns i've had about the inclusion of Sarah Palin on the republican ticket:



The National Organization for Women has endorsed the Obamba-Biden ticket for just the reasons listed below. They usually do not endorse, but in this case believed it was absolutely necessary to take a stand. If you agree, please pass this on.


Subject: Women and Sarah Palin


Friends,


We are writing to you because of the fury and dread we have felt since the announcement of Sarah Palin as the Vice-Presidential candidate for the Republican Party. We believe that this terrible decision has surpassed mere partisanship, and that it is a dangerous farce on the part of a pandering and rudderless Presidential candidate that has a real possibility of becoming fact.

Perhaps like us, as American women, you share the fear of what Ms. Palin and her professed beliefs and proven record could lead to for ourselves and for our present or future daughters. To date, she is against sex education, birth control, the pro-choice platform, environmental protection, alternative energy development, freedom of speech, gun control, the separation of church and state, and polar bears. To say nothing of her complete lack of real preparation to become the second-(and possibly first)-most-powerful person on the planet.


We want to clarify that we are not against Sarah Palin as a woman, a mother, or, for that matter, a parent of a pregnant teenager, but solely as a rash, incompetent, and altogether devastating choice for Vice President. Ms. Palin's political views are in every way a slap in the face to the accomplishments that our mothers and grandmothers and great-grandmothers so fiercely fought for, and from which we've so demonstrably benefited.


First and foremost, Ms. Palin does not represent us. She does not demonstrate or uphold our interests as American women. It is presumed that the inclusion of a woman on the Republican ticket could win over women voters. We want to disagree, publicly.


If you agree that Palin is an irresponsible, even dangerous, choice for VP, please consider participating in this drive. Gentlemen, send this to the women you know and care for. I know it's tough to understand the way this choice is impacting women, but I have never seen so many women so outraged, angry and distraught in my entire life. We'd like our voices heard. If you agree, PLEASE FORWARD WIDELY! If you send this to 20 women in the next hour, you could be blessed with a country that takes your concerns seriously. Stranger things have happened.


i am not trying to add to the divide that exists within the American populace at this point, but rather i want to extend my concerns, as a woman AND as an artist, to those who might still be confused or conflicted. i also wanted to use this space to speak to those who, although they have made up their minds to vote for McCain, have the capacity to consider the other side of the debate and recognize the danger this poses to half of our nation's citizens. women's rights and issues need to be taken seriously. our bodies should not be cages. currently, i am happy to live in a country that respects this outlook and i want to protect this ideology. i am engaged to a man who feels just as offended as i do. he wants women to be treated as equals, to be respected as such, and is as adamant as i am that a woman's body is her own.

if you agree with the statements of the above email, please feel free to cut and paste it and send it to anyone you think might have even left the smallest window open for this discussion. if not for me, if not for yourself or your sister or your daughter, then for your grandmother. please do not forget the struggle and suffering SHE went through to give you freedoms that she did not have. remember the suffragettes... they are the people who fought for us to have the right to vote.