.
a deeply held belief i adopted during childhood:
i am singular and will go through life that way.
i am trying to uproot it and it is very difficult.
scary as fuck.
the only place i feel entirely safe is within myself.
but that is a nebulous world.
mutable and full of anxious longing.
i take pictures of myself to prove that i exist.
not to prove it to you, to prove it to ME.
these shapes and angles and senses.
i take pictures of myself so that i can look and see and believe that i am
here, real,
walking and breathing along with the rest of you.
an attempt, maybe, to unhinge this belief in my own singularity;
to disrupt my distrust and make a window
in to (or out of) my own nebulous world.
.
these texts are an archive of my life in the San Francisco Bay Area from march 2007 - march 2015. it stands as a record of close to a decade of my life, charting the struggles i faced as an artist, daughter, and lover. messy and chaotic at times, eloquent and poetic at others, these texts are an index i am proud of. it was here in this electric box that i learned how to be honest about my experiences and the person i needed to become. it was here that i first learned the truism that words make the world and how to trust such a beautiful, rife, hard fact.
Jan 17, 2015
it isn't vanity
Labels:
angela simione,
evidence,
fear,
identity,
longing,
photography,
self portraiture
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