i re-opened my etsy shop today. it's something i've been wanting to do for quite sometime now and getting into the residency helped me pull the trigger on that this morning. i'll be putting more and more things up for sale in the coming week, it was just important to open it today. i simply needed to make the commitment to it. and it's about more than just needing to raise funds for travel and supplies, it's about having an artistic presence in the world in as many forms and places as i feel able to and interested in. it's about giving the art a chance to find its rightful home. it's about taking my role as an artist a bit more seriously each day.
i've been watching my bosses lately, paying attention to how they move, the expressions on their faces, the way they carry themselves, how they speak and, most importantly, how much time they dedicate to their profession every day. i started watching all this because 2 of them recently had birthdays and they were both in the restaurant on those days. i'd remarked to our Sommelier "working on your birthday? that sucks!" and her matter of fact retort was, "that's what this job takes." her assertion stayed with me the rest of the evening and has followed me around in the weeks since, popping in to my brain almost daily, and is now slapping my in the face with a very simple truism: those who work daily toward their goals, undaunted and with total stubborn persistence, achieve them. those the road through this world is a bit more unclear for artists, it is nevertheless true that making a 7 day a week commitment to ANYTHING will eventually lead to success. and i'm not even sure what i mean when i use the word "success" in relation to art as i largely already consider myself to be successfully living s an artist- i wake up every day with enough time to luxuriate in the landscape of my diary before getting dressed for work. i tend to work a 4-day work week and therefore have 3 days off every week to dedicate toward my own artist aims, whether it be holing up in bed and geeking out on a project of spending an entire day flipping through the monographs of artists i adore. i successfully incorporate art into my daily life. but i'd rather be plugging 12 to 14 hours a day in to my practice than do anything else. if i can look at my bosses and take a hint from them, what i'm seeing is the glaring reality to pursue what i want with as much steam and muscle as i've got because, as the lady said, "that's what this job takes."
these texts are an archive of my life in the San Francisco Bay Area from march 2007 - march 2015. it stands as a record of close to a decade of my life, charting the struggles i faced as an artist, daughter, and lover. messy and chaotic at times, eloquent and poetic at others, these texts are an index i am proud of. it was here in this electric box that i learned how to be honest about my experiences and the person i needed to become. it was here that i first learned the truism that words make the world and how to trust such a beautiful, rife, hard fact.
thank you for meeting me here in such tall grass.
my artist website is here.
my artist website is here.