i woke up and wrote for an hour, drinking irish breakfast tea all the while, and then began filling a box full of our dishes wrapped up in my clothes to keep my beloved blue willow intact while they are transported from the country to the city.
i can't tell you how anxious and joyful i am. how ready. how absolutely ready i am to move. i keep wondering about the images i will make once this is all over. once i'm out of this place and back to something that feels more like myself, my life. i'm eager to find the shadows i will roll up in next.
i took my German final yesterday and worked my last shift at my retail gig. my life here is winding down quickly. we moved the majority of our stuff to the new digs this passed weekend and now there's just the strangler possessions to deal with and the obligatory deep-cleaning to muscle through. i want to be done. i want to be moved. i want to wake up in a new room, in a new square of sunlight, with a new life budding all around me.
these texts are an archive of my life in the San Francisco Bay Area from march 2007 - march 2015. it stands as a record of close to a decade of my life, charting the struggles i faced as an artist, daughter, and lover. messy and chaotic at times, eloquent and poetic at others, these texts are an index i am proud of. it was here in this electric box that i learned how to be honest about my experiences and the person i needed to become. it was here that i first learned the truism that words make the world and how to trust such a beautiful, rife, hard fact.
4 comments:
Enjoy everything about this move, Angela! Especially the part where you get to experiment with habits and process. :)
hannah! i'm SO looking forward to this move- what it symbolizes and what it IS! i've been thinking about your comment all day and i love it. i love the encouragement to experiement with "habits". my daily routine and the rhythem of life is in for a tremendous shift here in the next week or so and i am grateful for your positivity surrounding changing those things (or allowing them to shift and be influenced by my drastic change in location).
<3
angela
It was joyful to talk to you last night. I love you.
Rebecca
super joyful! i'll be thinking of you all day, sweet one. i love you too.
<3
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