these texts are an archive of my life in the San Francisco Bay Area from march 2007 - march 2015. it stands as a record of close to a decade of my life, charting the struggles i faced as an artist, daughter, and lover. messy and chaotic at times, eloquent and poetic at others, these texts are an index i am proud of. it was here in this electric box that i learned how to be honest about my experiences and the person i needed to become. it was here that i first learned the truism that words make the world and how to trust such a beautiful, rife, hard fact.

thank you for meeting me here in such tall grass.


my artist website is here.

Dec 29, 2010

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i love the text printed across the front of the magazine; the confused question: you want me to say who i am? and as i read it, i feel the same curious pull inside my brain, wondering which title she will present. fashion model? daughter? so and so's girlfriend? woman? human?

my titles are shifting. i would not be sure how to answer this question if it were posed to me. i would shuffle my feet and look away, blush a bit, shrug my shoulders, get misty eyed for the titles i no longer carry... and the titles that have had a number placed on their days.

i am deeply sad. i'm not sure what is and is not okay to talk about here. i'm not sure how much of myself should be ante-ed up here. i don't know where the line is and i don't know what is expected of me... as a daughter. as a particular person's daughter. i don't know how silent i should be.

there is a massive tragedy going on in my family.


that's all i feel comfortable saying right now.





the new year will happen in 2 days. i have been writing and working almost constantly. i am getting antsy. i'm not waiting for the new year to actually start making good on my resolutions, i just want the ritual. i love the ritual. as if the day isn't real unless it is crowned. a coronation.


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6 comments:

Hannah Stephenson said...

I'm sorry to hear this. Be well.

angela simione said...

thank you, hannah. <3

Kate Zambreno said...

angela - i'm so sorry. if you ever want to vent or anything i'm here. thinking of you - kate

Marta Sanchez said...

Angela,
I am sending you energy. Whatever you care to say is up to you entirely. You can shield yourself from comments or leave it as save to draft and never show us. Sending you an email with another message.

angela simione said...

kate, thank you so much. <3

(i'll send you an email about all this. the road i'm on is one you've already walked. but i'm thinking of you in your new dwelling and i'm so excited for you! the romance of travel and relocation. i feel a hard pull for that experience in my own life right now.)

angela simione said...

marta, thank you thank you thank you. i just wrote you back. <3