these texts are an archive of my life in the San Francisco Bay Area from march 2007 - march 2015. it stands as a record of close to a decade of my life, charting the struggles i faced as an artist, daughter, and lover. messy and chaotic at times, eloquent and poetic at others, these texts are an index i am proud of. it was here in this electric box that i learned how to be honest about my experiences and the person i needed to become. it was here that i first learned the truism that words make the world and how to trust such a beautiful, rife, hard fact.

thank you for meeting me here in such tall grass.


my artist website is here.

Aug 20, 2010

draft #2

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it wasn't good enough.

or maybe it was just forgotten.

the white that folds down.

the envelope. the ceiling.
the wide eyelet curtains.



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degrees accumulate.
sometimes rescind
like a promise.

sand in the sheets.



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she lays under the big windows. there are two of them.
two windows in the same wall. a diptych. perpendicular
to the south sky. the light is good. the light falls
down. open mouths. warm as breath. and soft. she lays
on the floor. the curtains do not sway- she trembles,
lights a cigarette, and quietly closes the door.



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i know sea glass was once nothing more than regular glass.
still, i want to be polished just the same.



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on the other side of the windows are stars.
blue marks in the sky big as fists.

she stands close to the door.
she listens for feet.



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we've hated each other for as long as i can remember.



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