the rain flew sideways last night and hit the windows so hard that i woke up and couldn't fall asleep again until the wind finally blew in the opposite direction. spooky and magical and not at all unwelcome.
my small drawings have become a haven. new languages float and dive through the grey. i make myself a little nest in the big chair by the big window and listen to the storm and the wealth of birds fighting for the washed up worms. i curl in and get warm.
more and more, i am becoming myself.
more and more, i am letting go of the old hurts and horrors of the past. they suddenly seem so dated, so out of place. i nod at the old ghosts and move on, acknowledging their presence but turning off the haunt.
these texts are an archive of my life in the San Francisco Bay Area from march 2007 - march 2015. it stands as a record of close to a decade of my life, charting the struggles i faced as an artist, daughter, and lover. messy and chaotic at times, eloquent and poetic at others, these texts are an index i am proud of. it was here in this electric box that i learned how to be honest about my experiences and the person i needed to become. it was here that i first learned the truism that words make the world and how to trust such a beautiful, rife, hard fact.
6 comments:
'they suddenly seem so dated, so out of place'
that is a beautiful thing
it feels nice too. :)
You sound so much like me. Catalyst breezes that make you sparkle.... So inviting. Scurry away old ghosts... Haunting day is over...
Really nice and familiar.
:-)
doll, your comment reads like a poem!
thank you so much. :)
I love sideways slanty rain. Awww.
me too! :)
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