new...

my sweetie and i went to bed really early last night and caught up on a bit of the sleep we lost on the trip to southern california. and it did me wonders, for sure. i woke with a lightness today. some happy laughter in me. and sanity. and hope.

as my sweetie woke himself in the shower, i took my dog and notebook outside in to the cold and wrote wrote wrote and realized almost instantly the importance of goodness and humor in a person's day. how necessary they are... especially in the hard times. and i thought of my mother, two hours ahead of me, sitting out on her porch too, drinking coffee too, looking at her own beautiful forest and smiling.

there are so many things to be thankful for. she has roses. the breed that smell heavenly and cool and gentle. butterflies follow her around. it's true! they land on her nose and it creeps her out a little but it's a magical thing still. and i think of her, all bundled up in the iciness of this same morning, feeling happy and thankful and taking in all the small pleasures and know, for sure, that i must do the same.

a storm came through last night and the sky is white with low-laying fog and clouds now. i'll jog even if the rain decides to drop again. i'll run and breathe hard. i'll move. the leaves are turning yellow and brown. the end of the year, signaled in the vines. it is twisting toward its' end. and me. wondering where this year went. lost to confusion and desire, mostly. but if i look a bit closer, quite a bit of happy accomplishment as well. a calming down of old hurts. there is a newness in the stirrings. the holidays are welcome this time around. closeness and friendship and the ease of good, simple things.

good morning. :)