relieved...

off and on, i toy with the idea of publication. but then i realize how new i am at this whole poetry thing. though i've been writing my entire life, it hasn't really been all that long that i've been serious about it in the "professional" sense. and so i've decided that the question of publication isn't a good one right now. it puts too much pressure on the work. far too much and it damages what i'm trying to get after- it clouds the road. it mucks everything up. besides, here in my own place i feel much safer releasing my little blurbs out in to the world. here, it's understood that perfection isn't really the point. it's more about exposure than it is refinement. and since i've decided that publication in its traditional form isn't really the way i want to go right now and that it's something to look forward to in the future, i've been writing like crazy and exploring different modes and not feeling any pressure whatsoever to make a poem be this or that or fit in with the rest. it is freeing and i feel pleased with the work and that's exactly what i'm after- a release.