today, i picked up a collection of poems i haven't leafed through in close to ten years. it had been my constant companion during those shy and awkward days of big dreams when i was 17. i had dog-eared 1/3rd of the pages... poems that had struck my heart apparently... and so i give you one of those and to myself aswell. i think i'll curl up again with this collection after dinner and wine at the neighbor's house.
Calm Under Fire
for Ted
We die in different directions
At the same pace we die
As the virtue of structure and grace
As a challenge to distance
We die, you and I, with our hands
Outreached, by chance, one night each
Toward the other. In a corner
In a cellar. With jars and webs,
A continent apart, we die
As submission to an unfinished heart.
-Jim Carroll
from Fear of Dreaming
these texts are an archive of my life in the San Francisco Bay Area from march 2007 - march 2015. it stands as a record of close to a decade of my life, charting the struggles i faced as an artist, daughter, and lover. messy and chaotic at times, eloquent and poetic at others, these texts are an index i am proud of. it was here in this electric box that i learned how to be honest about my experiences and the person i needed to become. it was here that i first learned the truism that words make the world and how to trust such a beautiful, rife, hard fact.
Apr 5, 2009
memory-lane...
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